'I MISS MY MOMMA!!"

I went through the tests this morning and I got a good report. I thank the Lord for all the people who prayed for me- I so appreciate that. Prayers of for healing, for God's will, for my peace of mind.
I thank the Lord above for that, and for the privilege of being able to thank Him personally- to come into His presence.
The whole procedure went well, no major problems and that was great. I had only one visit with this doctor before this procedure, but I knew the Lord had sent me to him.
I had to work past a couple things about him- one was his age. I thought he looked twenty-two!
Turns out, he is forty-two, and the nurses gave him rave reviews. That was good to hear.
He is blunt- to the point- but kind. He is Chinese- no problem there, but I don't know him! - Found out today that he is a Christian, that's even better. So,God was good as always, in His leading me.
Another blessing today was my dear husband- he stood by my side, once again. He has stood by my side for the last forty-one years! Poor Baby- what you go through with for me. sigh. 41 years?
Has it been that long? Hard to believe.
I thanked God that my hubby was able to be with me- drive me home- and put up with my pent-up
emotional baggage.
I think sometimes it's hard for a man to understand a woman's point of view. Even though my husband is
my closest and dearest, friend and companion, I've come to understand something through the years, MEN JUST DON'T GET IT SOMETIMES!!! lol... God knows they try- but, we women have this place in which we communicate, that men, sometimes can't reach.

I told my hubby, after a long afternoon nap today, "I MISS MY MOMMA!" He said, Honey, it's ok. You're
ok. The test went well, everything is ok- not as serious as it might have been.
but, I sobbed, "I still miss my Momma!"- He looked puzzled, "You are a grown woman Honey- Maybe the medicine is having to do something with your feelings". He was trying to figure out what to say and what to repsond of course, not being on that same emotional plane of mine.

I said, "maybe the medicine is, but she was my cheering section". I walked out the
bedroom crying and wondering what in the world was going on with me!

My Mom died January 14, 2009 . I felt at the end of 2008 she wouldn't last long after 2009. She wasn't desperately ill- but, I felt she and God knew this secret of hers, and she was trying to prepare me and all her family for her soon passing.
I guess at 92 you would feel you were going to die at any time, and although she
wasn't saddened by it, or lauding it over us kids, she was trying to protect us- Mom was always
trying to protect us. She did a tremendous job of it. Alot of times overdoing what God desired!

My Mom knew the Lord from her youth, but she didn't always serve Him. My Dad wasn't a believer, but through a series of hard - and I mean hard adversities, He came to the Lord.
I thank God for that. My Dad was able to see the hand of God moving many, countless times
in his life and he served the Lord the last twenty plus years of his life.
Mom was his cheering section. Oh, they fought. No question about that! but mom showed us kids- through all the junk that took place in our home, her faith in God- time and again. Forgiveness was exercised on her part- and she preached this to all her family and all who would listen. She taught me so much about my need to forgive and to seek forgiveness for others. "You have to forgive if you want to be forgiven!" yes, mom.

People say their moms were the centers of their families- the hub of the wheel. She certainly
was that and more. She faced so much in her life and so many sad times. She lost her loving dad when she was a young woman. She went through a divorce. She went through years of problems with my Dad when he was an alcoholic. Mom, and Dad of course, lost two grown children they loved dearly. I thought losing the last one, would almost do her in. She suffered health issues- breast cancer for one,Diabetes another. She broke her hip and had to enter the 'dreaded nursing center' for rehab- we thought she would just die if she had to do that! lol
She survived that and lived on her own- which was a feat in itself- coming from, and having a huge family. We all tagged her our "pioneer woman"- Talents? There were
many and overflowing.

She had so much dignity- and regalness about her. Her love and compassion were genuine for her family and friends. No back talking - that wasn't allowed. You knew when
Grannie was upset with you.She wasn't a saint- but, close to it. She grew and grew and grew so much, spiritually through the years, that it was almost hard to compare her to the younger version of herself.
I guess that is the best thing of all about age. Learning from our mistakes- and hopefully,
growing in grace for ourselves and others.
One thing I know- that everyone who knew her would say- God was her best friend.
Family was all important to her. She longed for her family to be together and love each other
and accept each other's differences. Again the words, "You Have to Forgive!" stay in my heart and mind. Another of her favorites- "You Have to have Faith!"
That one, I would sometimes argue, "Yes, Mom, but when you're down and at low ebb, you
can't have the faith you need. God sends others to make that up for you- that's what grace
and mercy are all about"
"That's true!" she would say. "Thank God for all the people who have prayed for me"- and tears
would come to her eyes in that.
But, she would say again- "You have to have faith in God- He will see you through. He says
He will never leave you or forsake you." I thought of that alot today. Thanks Mom.

So- I'm feeling better- physically puny- but, better because I know that God is in everything
in our lives going on. Better because God puts those prayer warriors in our lives when we
are trembling with fear, or weak with adversities.
Better, because I know that my Mom is in Heaven right now, with my Dad, and I would think
the two of them are cheering this baby, in this senior body's suit' on and on.
God is our comfort and our strength. A very present help in time of trouble.

Have a great evening- resting in the One who loves you so very much.
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