Who or what takes our precious Time?

Lord.
Who do we go to? Who do I run to in times of trouble? Fear? Anxiety? Worry? Distrust?
Controversy? Or, maybe COMPLACENCY?
Father, forgive me for the times in my life I have viewed trouble as never ending, for with you there is always a way. Sometimes, it seems easier to pretend problems don’t exist. Then we don’t have to deal with them. Many times, we are not wanting to deal with them, for that might require something more of us, to seek your forgiveness or perhaps forgive someone we’ve hurt. Our pride - how it gets wounded. You so desire to set us free, grant us true peace, but, we fight it so.
I know that even now, as I write this, I have to be honest with you
Lord, I know who my problem solver is- you have never let me down- but, either laziness or indifference, whatever the culprit, I can, at times procrastinate coming to you. The television and that easy chair I sink into, provide an escape for me. The junk food just gears it farther along.
I don’t know what it is about us sometimes, that we indulge in indifference, self pity, unforgiveness, fear, worry, distrust, when the easier and more productive route would be to
lay our burdens at your feet. We can escape from what you would have for us to do in many ways. Television is just one way - and I think to myself, ‘what harm can there be in cooking shows?" Information is good- relaxation and rest is great. Entertainment is good. But, I think
when used as a diversion from being honest with you Lord, it isn’t the best way.
Anyway, Lord above, I feel like I’ve missed many a golden opportunity from your hand.
Besides the peace that you want to give- there have been times you have spoken to me to do your will and I have put it off - thinking I would get it done the next day. That call to my lonely
relative in the nursing home- finishing that oil painting my husband wanted- that scrapbook I
was going to make for someone. It’s a shame we can’t see these desires of yours Lord when you speak to us, for they would bless us as well as the receiver.
Lord, doesn’t it say that we are to be built up in the Word? I know when we have problems that
hit us like giant snowballs from who knows where, then where does our strength come from if we are not prepared? We’ve learned to go to you in times of utter despair and seemingly overwhelming circumstances, but should we not spend more times with you and your people in those quiet moments as well? I thank you Lord, that I am learning this process more and more and have thankfully, grown from my younger years. I know that I use to call on anyone who would listen- my next door neighbor, relatives, anyone that I thought might be closer to you Lord than myself. I needed answers. "I" needed consoling. I realize more and more, that spending good time with you each day is important, for You are no respecter of persons. You make time for me. You care and Help me to see the right way to think- you direct my steps and overtake my defeated feelings.

I write this to you, because I want to be all you desire me to be. I write this with earnest hope and expectations that you will forgive my not putting you first in so many ways. Not following the callings sometimes, of your Spirit. Being lazy- putting off.
There is a definite line drawn in the sands of time for me now, and I so regret so much of my life that I’ve wasted.
So many cards never sent. So many words never spoken. So many hugs nevergiven. So many tears never cried. So many prayers never being said.
There is much more to life and I’m tired of wasting a lot of precious time. I do enjoy television, and you know that Lord, and I don’t feel that to be the problem. The problem is the habit of making it, or whatever diversion an escape tool.
It’s a little late for New Year’s resolutions, but never too late to start each day realizing it is truly a gift from your Hands. I want to run to you Father, at all times. Not just when I’m in a fix.

I want to run to you as a child- filled with wonder, love, hope, expectation, receiving all that you have for me. Day and night. Help me Lord, and all that are reading this, to realize you are so much more than a problem solver. You are LIFE in itself.
Thank you once again Lord. With you- there is life, and abundant life to boot.
In Jesus’s Name. Amen"

My Mom's favorite scripture was: "Seek ye first the Kingdom of God, and His righteousness, and ALL these things shall be added unto you". I need not to only remember this scripture but apply it. I guess, thinking back, that's why she was always quoting it. Quit wasting LIFE itself.